Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Merry Christmas!!

Okay, while I still have not quite found all of my Christmas spirit, I did find some. All presents are wrapped, except the cookbook scrapbook that I am making for Cheshire Cat. I am still putting the finishing touches on it but I am really happy with how it has turned out so far. I did some last minute shopping today but managed to stay within my budget because of some awesome sales I found. We had a nice easy dinner tonight, crockpot meatballs (THANKS GALE!!!!) and there was nothing leftover. Hot chocolate and cookies and "It's a Wonderful Life" with friends and family and the day was complete.
Caterpillar is not really happy since I told him that no present opening would commence until Cheshire Cat and her family arrived in the morning, so after extracting a promise that she would be here as early as possible, he allowed her to go home.
It's been a very strange season this time around. I went through the motions and tried my best to stick to traditions. And it worked. Today was a really good day. I wish it would have been colder, maybe snow a bit, but I live in Texas so it's not like I am surprised. Tonight was a bit different, as we usually just have family here but having friends over was good too. Surprisingly good.
Merry Christmas to all of you......I hope yours is as good as mine is turning out to be.

Monday, December 22, 2008

Missing: Christmas Spirit

Reward offered.

Christmas is usually my favorite time of the year. I love the traditions and the time with family. I love the baking and cooking and the smells in my house from the cinammon. I love the music and the shopping and the picking of that just perfect gift for the people I love. I love sending the Christmas cards and I love receiving them. I love the decorating and sitting in my living room at night with the lights off and only the tree lights blinking. Sometimes, I am alone. Sometimes, Mad Hatter will join me and we will talk. And sometimes my kids are there.
This year however, I must confess something.
I have faked my Christmas spirit.
Honestly, I did not set out to fake it this year. I knew that I wasn't "feeling it" this year but I kept figuring that if I went ahead and forced myself to do stuff then it would eventually just all fall into place.
So I went Christmas shopping not once, not twice, but four times. I went with Mad Hatter once, twice with friends and this past weekend I went with Cheshire Cat and Aiden. I have baked every weekend since Thanksgiving and given gifts of food to all that we know. I sent out Christmas cards. We decorated the house and tree and wrapped presents and hung the stockings on the chimney with care. We have a little one here alot now and at 4 years old he still believes in Santa. I love that. We went to see the lights out at the lake and stopped at Santa's Workshop for cookies and hot chocolate. We have done fundraisers, this past weekend we did a food drive and we have tried to give back to the community and among our friends.
I watched Christmas movies, put on my Christmassy earrings and even wore a damn red and green sweatshirt while serving hot chocolate during the Christmas parade.
Dammit....I have tried.
But it's still missing.
This has been a tough year, health wise for alot of people in our families. And it's getting a bit tougher. Mad Hatter received a call from his mom tonight about his grandmother. They are not sure if she is going to make it. She is in the hospital and has an infection in her blood. They had to remove one of her veins and have her doped up on morphine and tons of antibiotics but it's strictly a wait and see thing now. I am praying for her now and feeling a bit selfish too. I don't want to leave my kids here to go up there for Christmas, but I will if we need to. Mad Hatter is incredibly stressed out about all of this and I truly understand where he is coming from. I have had problems with both my mom and my dad's health this year. So, I am just praying to get through Christmas and hoping that everything turns out okay.
But I still can't find my Christmas spirit.

Friday, December 19, 2008

A Mystery for You

Okay, I need some help here. I need someone to explain this to me because I am completely and totally stumped.
I just spent 3 hours in the emergency room with my 12 year old son. When I got home from work today he was home and on the computer playing WOW. No problem there, this is pretty normal but he was moaning and complaining that his ribs hurt.
Well I really didn't think too much of it because he was also eating two HUGE sandwiches and I just thought he was whiny cause Mad Hatter was making him get off the computer so he could play.
So Caterpillar goes into the kitchen and by this time he has tears in his eyes and is being very short with us, so I went in there to adjust his attitude and he is bent over. Mad Hatter came in and had him pull up his shirt and an area in the front of his rib cage is swollen. Noticeably so.
So now, as I am collecting my Mother of the Year award, I am on the phone trying to find out if possibly the doctors office is still open and I can get an appointment. No go, but they told me to take him to the ER to make sure.
So off we go to the ER.
On the way there Mad Hatter and I are quizzing him to determine what could have happened. The only thing that he can think of is today at school he fell asleep while watching a movie. His friend hit him to wake him up but I just cannot for the life of me imagine that he hit him hard enough to hurt him like that.
Xrays came back and they believe his ribs are cracked, which of course they could do nothing about except give him pain killers. So right now he is in his room, playing Xbox, while in happy Vicodin land.
Now, yesterday his sister totalled her car and walked away from it without any injuries, just some stiffness and aches. Today, this child who was nowhere near the accident,cracks his damn ribs without any noticeable provocation. I swear, the whole time I was in the ER I kept waiting for CPS to show up and accuse me of beating him in his sleep.
I just don't get it. How in the world could he have cracked his ribs and not actually remember HOW it happened?????? Is it possible that his friend actually hit him hard enough to crack them????? Is this one of those freak accidents???? Or did I really go in there and beat him in MY sleep?????

Thursday, December 18, 2008

Thursday Thirteen #4

Thirteen Things I Probably Won't Get for Christmas This Year

1.A 2008 Saturn VUE Hybrid.

2.A new walk in closet with built in shoe shelves and cubbies for my purses.

3.An office to put all of my stuff for work so that it isn't located in seven different places.

4.An assistant to help me find where I have placed everything.

5.An endless notebook. Why has nobody invented one of these????? I hate changing notebooks when I run out of paper and I don't want to use a binder. I just want to pick a notebook and NEVER run out of paper. Is that too much to ask?

6.An on call masseuse. With warm hands.

7.A free pass to Starbucks at any time.

8.To lose 40 lbs without having to do anything at all, like exercising and eating right. I wanna be able to eat cheesecake and not have any ill lasting effects.

9.A gigantic custom built kitchen with a huge island and cabinets as far as the eye can see.

10.Maid service....or children to magically remember to pick up everything they put down.

11.Happy customer service people. I just want to go into a store and not have to feel like I am inconveniencing someone when I need to ask a question or heaven forbid, check out.

12.A card from the electric company with a note telling me that since I am such a good customer, they are going to comp my bill for the entire year.

13.While I am at it, how about an endless bank account? I write out a check or swipe my card and it goes through no matter what I buy.

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Wednesday, December 17, 2008

100 Things

I was finally able to finish this list.....took me long enough.

1. I was born in Long Beach California
2. My dad was in the Navy so we moved around a lot when I was a kid.
3. I am the oldest child.
4. I have one brother.
5. My brother and I are not close.
6. My dad is living in the Vet’s home in Missouri after suffering a stroke.
7. My mother was in a nursing home for 7 years before she died in Aug.
8. I had my oldest daughter one month after I turned 16 years old.
9. I have three children total, one boy and two girls.
10. I have had many jobs in my lifetime but currently I am a merchandiser.
11. I work freelance for 2 companies and was hired as an employee for 3 others
12. I was married twice
13. I am now living in sin and liking it a lot better
14. My marriage life expectancies tend to run about 5 years
15. I have been living in sin for almost 7 years now with the love of my life
16. Christmas is my favorite holiday
17. I love the lights and family traditions my kids and I have started.
18. I love to read
19. I have only been able to pass this love of reading onto my oldest daughter
20. Although my middle daughter has recently gotten into it
21. I hold out hope that my son will someday understand the joy of reading
22. Mad Hatter is the 1st person that I have ever met that reads more than I do
23. My favorite color has changed throughout my life
24. Right now it is pink
25. I always have to have something to drink near me.
26. At home it is always sweetened iced tea
27. When I am driving around it is usually a cherry dr pepper from sonic
28. I am addicted to Starbucks White Chocolate Mocha lattes.
29. I do not make enough money to be addicted to Starbucks lattes
30. My favorite flowers are lilies
31. I have undiagnosed ADHD
32. I know this because I have absolutely no focus
33. Oh look! Shiny Thing!
34. Mad Hatter seems to think I have OCD
35. Just because I have certain things that must be done certain ways
36. Personally, I think he’s nuts
37. I hate cleaning bathrooms
38. But cleaning kitchens do not bother me
39. It sucks that I have two bathrooms
40. Since my oldest has moved out, she has become one of my best friends
41. I didn’t think that I would survive her teenage years
42. Or that I wouldn’t kill her
43. My middle daughter still lives with me. She is 18.
44. I hope to have that kind of relationship with her later.
45. If I don’t kill her first
46. My eyes change colors with my mood and what I am wearing.
47. Sometimes they are grey, blue or green
48. I am 5’10
49. I am so not telling you what I weigh
50. I love shoes and purses.
51. My closet is not very cooperative with my shoe and purse addiction.
52. It is much too small
53. People with no sense of humor annoy me
54. I like to cook
55. But cant sew to save my life
56. Although I did once make my son a fake fur vest for a school play
57. I am in the process of doing my first scrapbook
58. It’s a present for my daughter for Christmas
59. I really need to hurry up and finish it.
60. When doing laundry I don’t mind folding clothes
61. But I really hate hanging them on hangers
62. I am a Taurus
63. I hate cold weather
64. Unless I don’t have to go anywhere and can stay home all day
65. I can’t stand to sleep in socks
66. So I have cold feet every single night
67. I have colored my hair since I was 13 years old
68. It was blonde for the longest time but now is reddish brown
69. My house seems to have a revolving door.
70. Mostly at meal times.
71. My grocery bill is totally obnoxious
72. I am not a very organized person
73. But I really want to be
74. One thing I seem to be very good at is organizing fund raisers
75. Which is why I am in charge of all the ones for my sons Boy Scout Troop
76. My ideal vacation would be somewhere alone with Mad Hatter.
77. I didn’t ride on an airplane until I was 25 years old
78. I really didn’t like it
79. It might be because it was to Germany with 3 kids, by myself.
80. I have since rode a plane many times
81. It’s gotten easier, but I still don’t like it
82. I can’t function without my day planner and notebook.
83. My notebook contains all my lists.
84. I am a consummate list maker.
85. I’ve always wanted to visit Ireland
86. And find a pot of gold
87. I have a very neurotic dog.
88. I’m not sure he realizes he is a dog.
89. I have always wanted an herb garden.
90. But I tend to kill plants so I keep putting it off.
91. I am a procrastinator.
92. But I am trying to reform myself.
93. It’s not working very well.
94. I am not a morning person
95. I can't get up in the morning without hitting the snooze at least twice.
96. I got my first tattoo when I was 35.
97. It will be my last.
98. I miss the fact that my kids were once cute babies but I dont want anymore.
99. I will hold out for grandkids instead
100. This was really hard!

Thursday, December 11, 2008

Thursday Thirteen #3

Thirteen Things That Made Me Smile Today

1. The Bell Ringer in front of one of the Walmarts I was in today. I am in different stores several times a week and most of the time they ring their bells with a look on their face like they have the worst possible job in the world. Today, this particular Ringer was ringing his bell to the tune of Jingle Bells and dancing along with it. It was downright cute, made even cuter by the fact that he had to be 108.
2. A segment on the radio today while I was driving where they were discussing the worst possible gifts you can get for your child's teachers. They had teachers calling in with their two cents worth and some of their comments were just hilarious. BTW...for what it's worth, mugs, wooden or metal apples of any kind, and body lotions all seem to be things they would rather not get any more of.
3. The text that Mad Hatter sent me in the middle of the day that just said "I love you". AND it wasn't even because he wanted anything, at least not that he has mentioned yet.
4. Baby snuggles. Emily called today and asked if I would please please please babysit for a few hours until Dormouse got off work and could take over. She has been sick for a couple days so she was feeling all lethargic and wanted to just sit and snuggle in the chair. Sometimes I miss when my kids were little.
5. A clean garage!! I came home from work and Mad Hatter was outside cleaning out the garage. And I didn't even have to threaten to smother him with a pillow while he was sleeping.
6. A Christmas card from an old friend that I haven't seen in almost 10 years and haven't even talked to in over a year.
7. A pretty ornament from one of the managers at one of the stores I service monthly.
8. Baking Christmas cookies with a bunch of 12-13 year old boys for the bake sale we are having on Saturday. They had alot of fun and so did I.
9. A friend who called me today and asked if there was anything she could do to help me out with the bake sale on Saturday and the gift wrapping tomorrow since she cleared a bit of time in her calendar. God knows I needed some help!
10. The look on Mad Hatter's face when he found out that the reason his computer keeps crashing is because it needs a new thingamajig. Yes, I know that is not very helpful but when the person told him what it was he ordered the part and told him that he wouldn't charge labor. The look on his face was priceless when he heard this.
11. An email from my dad who just got a new computer and is back online now so it will be much easier to keep in touch with him. Course now I can't get through on his phone line to talk to him cause he is always on the computer.
12. Dinner. That I didn't have to cook. When Dormouse came home from work she brought a bunch of hot wings and fries because she knew that we had the meeting at our house tonight and that I wouldn't have time to cook. AND, she didn't want me to give her any money for it!
13. Gas for $1.38 a gallon!!!!

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Wednesday, December 10, 2008

A day in the life of

It's been awhile since I have updated and since I know that you are all on the edge of your seats wondering what is new in my life, I will just have to put you out of your misery.
Well for starters, I have been working ALOT. I have had two different meetings in the past couple weeks with different DM's from companies that I work for.
I have also been planning a Hot Cocoa/Bake Sale for the Parade on Saturday and only a portion of that includes the actual um, you know, baking, which incidentally I have not started yet because I am a procastinator.
There was also the birthday BBQ from hell this past weekend, wrapping of presents, christmas cards finished and mailed out, more shopping, doctors appointments, vet appointments, various meetings involving the scouts, popcorn money pickups and dropping off at the council.
Wow...I am tired just thinking about it. But alas, all good things will come to an end and after this weekend where I will spend Friday wrapping presents at the local bookstore for donations and then Saturday serving hot chocolate and various baked goods for money for the troop, I will just have to worry about things like day to day household stuff, work and Christmas.
Which brings me to the checklist, which when I pulled out my list, actually looks pretty good.

*Christmas cards filled out and mailed.
*All presents that have been bought already are wrapped and under the tree.
*Both boxes that must be mailed next week are already started and am just waiting for a couple things for one of them and I will take both of them to the Post Office as soon as it comes in.
*Cheshire Cat's scrapbook is about half done.
*Mad Hatter is done.
*Aiden is done.
*Jayla is done.
*I just need to pick up a few things for Caterpillar but I know what they are so I am good there.
*Grandma is done.
*Praying that Dad's book that I ordered comes in but I have a contingency plan if that doesn't work out.
*Need to pick up two more things for Dormouse but I know what those are and will pick them up in my "spare" time.

Now I just need to figure out something else for Cheshire Cat and something for Alvin and I should be done.
I think.

Monday, December 1, 2008

Ain't Family Grand?

Could someone please explain to me where in the hell this year has gone???? The other day it was February and then I blinked and here it is December!
On one hand things are progressing as well as can be expected considering it's DECEMBER 1st!!!
Decorating is done, present shopping has been started, wrapping paper is bought, christmas cards are bought and sitting there waiting for me to get my head out of my butt and address them, weekends are planned out for the next few weeks, and lists have been made. I have even made a couple batches of christmas cookies and we have already started watching Christmas movies. So many movies, so little time.
On the other hand, I haven't wrapped anything yet, I haven't addressed my cards yet(though I do have stamps!!) I haven't finished my Christmas shopping yet, and I really need to at least get the stuff bought quickly that needs to be mailed.
Let's just focus on the good for now, shall we.

At least we got the decorating done.